Be warned. This post is not really about the kids. Hope that’s ok.
It’s about time for some changes around here.
I have way too many things to do, and way too little time to do them.
The Disney Marathon is getting closer.. it’s August, but I know before I turn around, it will be Christmas. And then the marathon is early January, so it’s time to get my butt in gear. Oh yes, and I have to raise about 2,180 for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. It’s going to be quite a feat, but I do think I can do it.
The problem is that I spend a ridiculous amount of time on the computer, working on Multiples and More… This project is so important to me that I stay up way too late and wake up super tired, with a headache almost every day.
And then, there are these three little people that live here, that are like, totally demanding. I am always trying to figure out what to do with them and how to keep them engaged and learning, but sometimes it’s all I can do to feed them and change them and clean up after them. They take up most of the day, and then I’m cleaning up after them for a good bit of the night. It’s pretty hard to get other things accomplished.
Being a SAHM is freakin’ hard. I have so much I want to do and I feel so guilty when I don’t get it all done. I feel like I need to figure out a way to make some money to help support us, I feel terrible that Todd has to shoulder that responsibility on his own. So that’s always in the back of my head.
I have to figure this out. I feel like I’m in a time warp and I have to get reorganized before I wake up and I’m 45 and have nothing to show for it.
Yes, I have my kids, and yes, they are awesome. I’m lucky to have them. No argument there.
But what kind of example am I setting for them if I accomplish nothing for myself? I want them to grow up knowing that there are endless possibilities for them and the things they can do. I am the one responsible for teaching them this, and I feel like I am failing them.
I think that’s (just) one of the reasons I want to run this marathon. I want to do something that they can be proud of me for too someday.
So, as I said, it’s time for some changes. I need to reorganize and prioritize and get more sleep. Oh, yeah, and run more. A lot more.
So, stick around and find out how it goes.