I am so, so lucky to have three healthy kids. I know this.
But I just can’t shake the feeling that time is going by too fast and I am not doing all the things I should be doing, because I am just too busy or too tired. They will be two, and I still have never really found a balance where I feel like I am getting enough things done, yet have the time to really enjoy the little things; the special, little moments that I know I am going to miss someday.
I’m working. I’m taking care of my kids. I’m (somewhat) keeping the house in order. I work on my project. And that’s all good. But I also need to run more, catch up with my long-time friends, finish up my fundraising for Team In Training (228 more to go!), start my book project, and somehow figure out how to get more sleep. I just have no idea how to accomplish it, but I know it can be done. I’ve seen people do all this, and with more kids than I have, so it’s possible. Is it just not possible for me? I hate to think that way, but maybe that’s the case.
I’m not really going anywhere with this post, just rambling really. I just wish someone would slow down this time warp that I’m in so I can regroup and figure out how to do things better.
I’ll figure it out, somehow.
For now, let’s focus on my amazing little almost 2 year old beauties. I played around with Picnik tonight a little- LOVE that site.
Here are a few from the playground at the Omni, where our family was staying this week. We went for a visit, and for a swim in the awesome lazy river (yes, at a hotel!)
OK, this one is out of order, form later that day. Someone needs to tell Lily that she will not fit in this dolly stroller!
Hopefully sometime tomorrow (today) I’ll get to grab some birthday gifts for the kids, as I still haven’t gotten them anything. I have no idea what we are doing for their birthday- I didn’t plan a party this year. What a terrible mom I am, no party, no gifts. I stink. I just felt like I don’t have it in me to do all the cooking/planning/shopping/cleaning and I don’t want everyone to worry about presents for the kids because I know everyone is going through some tough financial situations. I figured, this year, they still won’t know the difference if they have a party or not, and we can just have a low-key day with my parents, the kids and us and we’ll go all out next year. That’s what I’m going to tell myself anyway. And I do plan on buying them a train table tomorrow:)
Have a great day.. and if you feel so inclined.. I only need 228 more dollars to reach my fundraising goal for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society! Click here to help me out:)